After Birth: Is It Selfish to Care About Your Body? | Op-Docs
After Birth: Is It Selfish to Care About Your Body? | Op-Docs I’M sorry guys the whole process, you, let’s believe, is a woman. That is the most natural thing that can happen to you. So what’s the purpose of your body accept it felt incredibly unnatural and alien to me. You don’t me, look pregnant. You just look like you’ve. Let yourself guard you look like you’ve had one too many Greg’s or something, and you don’t look pretty. I like that. Like my tit family matching, I looked and I was a bit like. Felt like quite that goes like I’m. Just driving child’s is really nice having it wavy and long more of it and has beautiful nails, but that was really nice to come down from that, but it was a really nice kind of the middle of the pregnancy. Is it’s a really great time? Cuz? You still feeling really comfortable and you all the benefits of the hormones kicking in. So that was the first time I was pregnant. I didn’t get stretch marks into the last month with him. It was eight stretch marks and another thing about me. The most is the rest cuz, my boobs are huge and and in the beginning I was really upset about 10 miles tending my husband. It’S not good or bad. It’S just me and you know, and then you get pregnant and then you slowly start seeing change, which is fine, cuz you’re, growing, a human being. When you finally give birth and then you’re left with this new body that you took the 30 years to accept and To love and to figure out and figure out what works and doesn’t work and all the sudden, it’s a completely different volume. I think that’s where my issues with giving birth came from, you know not being able to wear your own. Clothes sounds trivial, but I actually just is another thing that really makes you not feel like yourself and it’s one of the things that makes your life legible. To you feeling my boyfriend slightly recoil from me like I’m, a sexual act like he would probably object that. What but feeling that shift of his perception of me is no longer sexually looks like I don’t want to cover you in spunk. I want to look after you expected a lot of negative things from pregnancy and from giving birth, and I was prepared it’s going to be hard and everything that I wasn’t expecting so much love. I really didn’t even know that I’m capable of so much love and so which dwarfs everything else in comparison. But I was never really too much in in chewing with myself as a woman to know how I look down there or can’t even Define how I fell down there. But the minute I gave birth on you that everything changed for me and wasn’t really bouncing back into my normal life, with my husband that took long long time and I think two bottles of wine. But I mean I’m talking about like 7 months. I think the last couple of weeks of being pregnant, I lost all sense in my hands. So all of my one after another or 10 fingertips went numb is some syndrome where your wrist swell up so much that the nerves that go through your wrist stop sending the info straight from your fingertips. I think it took probably more than 2 to 3 months for sensation to come back in my hands. If you can’t feel what you doing, it’s a very weird thing to be taken care of very little child. I never had serious or real injury before in my life until C-section, so that was a big thing. I had no idea what’s going to happen, always going to look like after the surgery I had stretch marks. I don’t have flat belly at all that physical changes comes together with the everyday work of being your mom. Even the tension you put on your nose, you should hold her tight because I usually don’t drop her things like that. You know what I mean. I think it was hard on my body and yeah. You make me dislike my body, even things like now. We know we’re thinking of going holiday and I’m like, I always liked wearing bikini and a Brazilian Beach. You should be ashamed, of course, and I do have to look at myself, sometimes and admit I don’t like it. I don’t love it. I love to send the message to people, yes show it be proud of it, but I’m still working on it. You just keep looking at yourself and your just. What is that you know and actually affected me bonding with my baby, because your mental love text automatically, which I did I protected my baby, but I just didn’t like him for what he did to me. It took me like a 8 weeks to get into okay you’re, my son. I love you. I had some tears and assuring 6 times a day cuz. That was the only time I could pee without feeling pain and have my data system was hanging out of my, but you knows really disgusting. How do I go to the bathroom you know? How do I take a s***? These are the kind of things that were like. I was apprehensive about, so I had like a two-for-one deal by that emergency C-section. We had no idea what level of pain you can be in without being dead. It would have been really nice to just be told. It’S going to be almost as if you were going to die post surgery, recovery. That was a lot longer than I thought, and they were a lot more unexpected things that happened like the vagina walls are really irritated, which nobody could really explain us forever, bleeding like everyday for half a year, and nobody could tell me why or whether it was Going to stop just before I got pregnant, I finished my Master’s, so it’s gone from this being very stimulated, intellectually, to those five stages of looking after an infant which are boring, The Loft and you’re very, very tired, and so it’s a bit like alif no fantasies Me my brain is not involved in the same kind of activities today, then, who am I and I did it, because I wanted to go back to how I looked as quick as possible? Is such a weird balance of trying to dive at the same time worrying about? Are you getting enough nutrients to your kids or your breast milk? Am I being selfish by compromising his food supply cuz, I’m I’m trying to lose weight and look good, which is such a superficial thing to wanted what a selfish thing to want. You know probably important to me. I wanted to breastfeed and I think also I would have felt like I failed wilfie. If I hadn’t the app to it’s my breath still quite empty double quite haunted. Basically, they the skin, never could have went back when Wolfie was a year old. I had a breast augmentation and breast felt like we just taking ownership back of my iron 40. It’S a different feeling, generally after giving birth and being so preoccupied with keeping her alive and everything that I put all. part of myself aside for a long long time about having sex I’m breastfeeding. And it’s really weird because you’re like you, have changed how you do things a bit. Basically, it’s not about feeling of my boobs long to Luna, which was so silly, but like you only has that tolerance and patience just for your baby and nothing else, natural and fun than spontaneous and beautiful, and you can’t wait for it to her. Sometimes you wanted something you don’t now it’s like the psychological thing and I never thought that would be the problem with having a baby kind of pressure in the amount of responsibility that placed on our shoulder the moment we give birth and they give us baby in There like here, you go good luck, the anxiety, anxiety constantly and I couldn’t my favorite cat is late because it was like having a tiny ball that could go off at any moment. I mean I can’t look back up the aftermath of pregnancy and butt with anything other than I feel traumatized by that Billy still yeah. I plan to have another one as well, and all these changes doesn’t have any effect on its because, apart from everything, each second I say – retired, it’s just amazing like Just Like Heaven. I don’t want to have any children. I don’t want to have any family. I want to be on my Iron Giant on Tinder and, if I feel like my body is not yet know how I wanted to be, but you know who cares basically, In today’s Op-Doc, women discuss the surprising ways having a baby affected them, from their bodies to their moods. While society paints pregnancy and motherhood in a picturesque light, these mothers talk about the intimate and real consequences of having a baby, about learning to love him or her when you hate what’s happened to your body.
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